Monday, July 28, 2014

Missing Matt Alot!

I cried when you passed away.
I still cry today.
Although I loved you dearly,
I couldn't make you stay.
A golden heart stopped beating,
Hard working hands at rest.
God broke my heart to prove
to me he only takes the best.

Love you Matt and miss you very much!
Love Mom

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Fast Summer!

This summer has been flying by!!  Myles has been talking so much putting 3 and 4 word sentences!  He is working on counting, colors and some ABC's.

Matt would be so proud on how well his son is growing and maturing!  Casey is doing a great job with their son!

Myles giving his puppy, kitty and tag blanket and puppy blanket allgoing for a ride!!

Myles and Grandma Kitty went for a walk to the school play ground!

Myles is on Uncle Steve's new motorcyle!!  Go Myles go!!

Matt I think of you every day!  Many times a day!  I miss you so much!

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

My Mother's Day

My Mother's Day

On Mother's Day I miss my son.

Yet I look up into the sky and feel him smiling down on me.

On Mother's Day other mothers are accepting handmade gifts from their children

When I bask in the glow of my son's bravery.

On Mother's Day some mothers are having breakfast in bed.

I wake up next to my husband who thinks I am the best mommy ever!

On Mother's Day I miss having the duties of a mommy.

Yet my duty is to spread his story and his inspiration every chance I get.

On Mother's Day I wonder what he'd be doing now.

But when I think about my role in my son's life I know he's proud of me.

On Mother's Day most mothers get to snuggle their children.

On that day I know that my child is always in my heart and is always watching over me.

On Mother's Day mommies look forward to being honored.

I dread it but also enjoy it thru Christine, Jenny, Nate and Casey and all my grandchildren!

On Mother's Day a lot of mommies spend time with their loved ones.

My time is spent with close loved ones who call me mommy or grandma.

On Mother's Day many moms look forward to watching their kids grow and thrive.

I look forward to seeing how my son's life will help others if not myself.

On Mother's Day there are moms who carry a strong load yet revel in it.

Losing my son is a strong load yet a labor of love, I carry it with pride.

On Mother's day I know that I am blessed with my Husband, children and grandchildren but I also;

feel blessed and looked after everyday by my guardian angel, my son.

On Mother's Day some mothers wish they could be with their lost son.

I do too, yet his life in Heaven is much better than what he would live on Earth.

On Mother's Day most moms are crying tears of happiness at their accomplishments as a mom.

I cry tears of loss yet the same tears of pride, the same tears of those moms, in a different capacity.

Matthew I miss you very much. I know and feel you around me every day! I know that you are looking after Chrissy, Jenny, Natie and Casey and especially your son! I dream about you and sense your presence all the time! I love and miss you very much!

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Special and Hard Week

This Saturday, April 19th will mark 2 years of missing Matt!  I think of him every day, a hundred times a day!  I miss his smiles and his hugs!  I am so proud of him and Casey for such a wonderful grandson, Myles.  Myles looks so much like his daddy.  It is funny with Matt not here how Myles does alot of things like his Dad!  Funny how things like that work out!!  Saturday the family is going to spend the day together and remember Matt and  all the many, many happy times.  I know he is in the best place ever with the Lord but I sure do miss him!!

Here  are some up dated pictures of Myles.  He is growing like a weed and smart as can be!!  He is just so darn cute!!

Myles and Zane finally getting outside for some fresh air!!

Here is the group I get to watch on Wednesday, Thursday and Fridays!  They keep
me young,  Emily 2 1/2 years old, Gavin, 4 years old, Myles and Zane 20 months old!

Zane and Myles like helping Grandma in the kitchen!!

Zane, Myles and Gavin posing for grandma and giving her a hard time trying to
get them all to smile at the same time!!

Myles taking the car out for a ride!!

Mom and Myles hanging out together!

Just way to cute!!!  Smiling for the camera!

Loves digger trucks just like his Grandpa Jerry!!!

Going for a walk with Uncle Ryan, Colby and Mom!


Myles and Colby sitting and behaving!! Not sure if we should be worried
that they are plotting and planning something!! LOL

Myles hanging out with his cousin Colby and friend

Myles and Colby going for a ride!!!

Myles figured out how to put his boots on even the right way!!!

The Broken Chain

We little knew that day that
God was ging to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly.
In death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
You did no go alone,
For part of us went with you,
The day God called you home.
You left us peaceful memories,
Your love is still our guide,
and though we cannot see you,
Youare always at our side.

Our Family chain is broken,
And nothing seems the same,
But as God cals us one by one,
The chain will link again.

Blessed are they that morn
for they shall be conforted.

Monday, February 24, 2014

18 month doctor appt!

Doctor appointment went well!  Doctor said Myles is above average in his height and weight!  Although if you ask Myles he did not want to be there at all!!  The nurse tried to get his height and he cried and wiggled around on her.  The nurse stated he was very
strong for a 18 month old!!  Then the nurse tried to get Myles' weight and he would have nothing to do with it!  Myles is about 22.5 pounds!  Then Dr. Hayes came in and
wanted to listen to his heart and boy was Myles mad and just wanted to leave this
Doctor appointment.  The next thing was shots and I had to leave so I figured the office might have heard Myles gettting his shots on Friday.  Myles had such a fun day
at Grandma Kitty's.  He got to play with his cousin, had a good nap but just not in
to seeing the doctor!!

Myles and his cousins, Gavin and Zane brushing their teeth at Grandma Kitty's

Grandma Kitty got a new kitchen set for the grandkids to play with.
All the kids have been having fun playing in the kitchen!!

Myles posing for Grandma!  Playing with the letters and learning the
colors and each letter!  Myles was having fun!!

Myles wearing Grandma Kitty's shoes!  He was not having
a problem walking around in them!!
Group shot of Grandkids!  Whenever I get all them on the
same day I always have to show everyone how big
they are all getting!!!

An Angel on loan,

Has now earned his wings,

Now his voice rises high,

With God's chorus he sings.

His life was a wonder,

Beautiful and Blessed,

Your hearts are now heavy,

Burdened by this test.

Remember the laughter,

The good times not bad.

Take time to cherish,

The time that you had.

Life is always on loan,

The end lingering near,

But with God's loving hand,

There is nothing to fear.

Celebrate his life,

He is always close by,

Tell him "I love you",

To hear an Angel sigh

Monday, February 10, 2014

Myles is so smart!

Myles and his cousin Zane wearing the same PJ's they got from

Trying to get a picture with all 4 kids.  I could not get them
to put down their "Milk Cups" and smile so I had to take
a picture of them drinking their milk!!!

Great Grandma Jo with Myles. Myles went to Brookfield to visit his
great Grandma & Grandpa Tony!   He was having a great time
with all the new toys he had never seen!!

Great Grandpa Tony with Myles!!  He is growing up so fast!

Myles, Emily, Gavin and Zane.  I was trying again to
get all 4 to smile for Grandma Kitty!  Not any easy
task like one might think!:)

Zane and Myles goofing around in the crib!  Luckily neither of
them have tried to climb out on  Grandma Kitty!!

Myles loves coming over to Grandma Kitty's to see his favorite
dog!!!  He is always showing his graitude!

Uncle Nate with his two God children!  Myles still
has an inch on Zane but when it comes to eating
I would say Zane eats more.  You would never be
able to tell because he is such a peanut but he is a bottmless
pit!  Myles on the other hand looks like he swallowed a small
basketball!  His tummy is to darn cute!!!

Great Grandma Aud and Great Grandpa Art's 55th wedding Anniversary.
They took us all out for dinner.  Myles is joined by all his cousin's
on the Krueger side.   Great time had by all.

Myles enjoying his bath time!  He loves playing in  the water!!

Angel In Heaven

There's a special angel in Heaven

that is a part of me.

It is not where I wanted him

but where God wanted him to be.

He was here just a moment

like a nighttime shooting star.

And though He is in Heaven

he isn't very far.

He touched the heart of many

like only an Angel can do.

I would've held him every minute

if the end I only knew.

So I send this special message

to the Heaven up above.

Please take care of my Angel

and send him all my love.

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Sorry for the Delay

Mr. Myles sporting his cute look!!
Sorry it has been so long since I have written. I decided to make all my christmas presents for the kids and grandkids. I was really busy scrapbooking 5 recipe books for the kids and making 4 wooden outdoor chairs for the grandkids! Myles has been growing like a weed! He vocabulary is really big for a 1 1/2 year old! He can say all his Grandparents names and Aunt and Uncles names.  He knows all the parts of his body
even his elbows, ankles, brain, forehead, face, cheeks even his butt and stomach!  Casey has been doing a wonderful job with Mr. Myles!!

Her are some pictures to catch you up.  I am having computer problems trying to get the pictures downloaded so they got a little mixed up.

Grandpa Jerry decided to fix Myles hair after a nap!
Myles was not to fond of Santa when he showed up on Christmas day"!
Here is Myles with some of his cousin's on his Grandma Kitty's side.
Grandma Linda playing with Myles and his cousin Colby on a snow day!
Myles after Christmas enjoying a ride on the horse! He is getting so big!
Aunt Casey having fun with Myles and Colby on the school snow day!!  Yeah!!
Casey and Myles getting to spend time together and having fun during this
very cold spell the midwest is having.  It is -17 with the windchill factor
it got to -45 this morning!!
Myles playing basketball during one of his baths!  Isn't he the cutest thing ever!!
Okay for me one of the cutest boys!  Zane and Gavin are right up there with him!!!

Myles on Christmas day with some of his cousins!
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Myles playing with Emily's christmas present!  Watch out Mom I
think he needs a broom and dust pan of his own so he can help!!!
Look what Santa brought Myles while he was sleeping!!  I think Grandma Kitty
needs to come over and play with him in his ball pit!!
Emily, Zane, Myles and Gavin sitting in the chairs Grandma Kitty made.
The green chairs are painted like John Deere with their name and logo on it.
Myles and Zane's chair was painted as a "Cat" chair.  Myles' Grandpa only has
Catepillar equipment and maybe a few John Deere pieces of equipment!!
Grandpa Jerry with his favorite grandchildren!!  Colby and Myles

Myles at Grandma Kitty's house wearing one of her fire department hats!!
I think he needs one too!! He looks way to cute in it!

Myles in his new "Cat" hat and sitting in his new "Cat" chair!

Myles on his min excavator from Santa!
Colby and Myles having fun!!
Myles and Emily at Grandma Kitty's house!  They think they are
so cute!! Hey, their right they are!!
Myles and Grandma Kitty on Christmas day!

Grandpa Brian playing with Myles on Christmas day.

Myles and Colby and Casey having lots of fun while Casey
is  off on the snow day because it is so cold here in Wisconsin!!

I thought of you  today, but that is nothing new. I thought about you yesterday and days
before that too. I think of you in silence, I often speak your name.  All I have is
memories and a picture in a frame.  Your memory is a keepsake, for which I will
never part.  God has you in his arms.  I have you in my Heart . . . .
I love you Matt and miss you very much!!!